I really hope that I don’t jinx myself by saying this but so far, this year is going pretty well.

I feel as if I need to remind myself to stop and smell the roses and thank the universe for all that I have been blessed with because my heart is so full.

I am loved by the best friends & family ever!!!!

I just received my midterm grades and I have a 3.9 GPA.

In 3 months, I will begin doing the thing that I am pretty sure that I was born to do.

I’m living a healthy life both physically and mentally.

I just started doing yoga.

I am smiling more and it’s not to cover up a broken heart.

It’s a process.

It hasn’t always been easy.

But I’m doing the work to let go and hang on to what is right in front of me.

I’m dreaming about a beautiful lady, a healthy relationship, a family, and a lifetime full of memories.

I am ready for her. Wherever she may be. I’m ready.

Sometimes life really does suck. Sometimes we have to pick up the broken pieces of our heart and keep moving, because during the pain and the darkest nights of heartbreak, the world keeps turning.

When tragedy strikes, we are given the option as to how we react. We can use it as a crutch and live in self pity forever and never move forward, or we can use it to our advantage and learn something from it and grow as a person.

It’s the hardest thing, telling myself that everything I endured in life has been a lesson.

…then I remember all that it taught me and gave me.

It lead me to finding Rachel after years of seeking a therapist that I connected with and trusted with every little shameful memory in my being. I was finally working on forgiving others. I am learning to forgive myself and let go of the guilt. I was able to hold the hand of the 4-year-old little girl inside of me and tell her that she is loved. I was able to walk away from people that didn’t deserve me. I was able to look at my life and see what I needed to fix and start making those changes.

I am so happy. Not because of another person, but because of myself.

They say that you need to love yourself before you can truly love someone else.

Maybe, but I’ve never had a problem loving other people. It’s always been myself that it was difficult for me to love and accept.

Life is beautiful, magical and I am counting my blessings and thanking the universe that I am still here.

I have a lot to do.

I have big dreams.

Big plans.

I want to spread love, as much of it as possible.

Because without love, there’s no life.

JMS