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Where love, heartbreak, and healing live in words
we were close close enoughto feel everything or at leastI thought we were but something was missing something softsomething real and I didn’t name itnot then I just stayedquiet like if I didn’t look at itit wouldn’t matter but I remember now how I reached for youand you pulled away how something in mefelt iteven…
Unhealed wounds don’t stay quiet. They don’t fade just because you refuse to look at them. They sit inside you—open, infected, waiting. And if you don’t deal with them, they start bleeding into everything. You can try to drown them. Drink until your thoughts blur. Eat until you feel something—or nothing. Let people touch you…
there were moments where everything felttoo loudtoo heavytoo close like I couldn’toutrunwhat was inside me like the weightmight win and I thought how easy it would beto disappear to slip outof all of it to finallyfeel nothing but something in me stronger than the momentstronger than the fear held on not loudlynot perfectly just enough…
it felt so goodto get away with you like the worldsoftenedwhen you were near like I could restinside somethingthat wasn’t mine but somewherein the middle of us I disappeared not all at once—just slowly piece by piecequietly like I was playinghide and seek with myself and I got so goodat hiding I forgothow to be…
a lot has happenedsince that day in April a day that triedto take something from meI didn’t yet understandhow to protect and for a while I carried iteverywhere like it was allI would ever be but slowly life found me again in small waysat first in choosing to stayin choosing to tryin choosing to keep…
the sun promisedthe flowerit would always stay and the flowerbelieved it— opening slowlylearning lightlike lovewas somethingit could trust but night camelike it always does and the warmthleft without asking no warningno apologyjust absence and the flower—still turnedtoward where the sunused to be— whispered,you said you’d stay over and overuntil the darkfelt like an answer it…
