I used to feel
like I was standing
at the edge of something high—
calling out
to people
who never looked up
like if I was loud enough
visible enough
soft enough
someone would finally say
I see you
but they didn’t
and for a long time
I thought
that meant
I was invisible
I wasn’t
I was just
looking for recognition
in places
that couldn’t hold me
so I made myself smaller
quieter
easier to miss
and called it love
but love
was never something
I lost
it was something
I kept giving
to people
who didn’t know
what to do with it
and somewhere in that
I forgot
to give it
to myself
until now
because I see me
I see the way
I stayed
the way I tried
the way I kept loving
even when it hurt
and I don’t need
to shout anymore
I don’t need
to be found
because I am
already
here
JMS
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